Within the past couple of weeks, I have had so many friends back home in Ontario, and new friends here, that have had to say goodbye to their beloved pets. It has made me recall my own losses and brings me to the realization that I have a senior large dog, who came to me on borrowed time 2-1/2 years ago.
I always wonder do my pets know how much I love them. When Dupont left this earth 4-1/2 years ago, my biggest worry was if he knew how much he meant to me, how much he was loved. I have to believe he did, I still feel him in my life from time to time.
Flipflop and Dahlia are loved and I think Flipflop knows it. He is adored, even when he’s naughty. I know in years from now though, when he needs to leave me I will have those same worries, does he know how much he truly is loved by me?
When I look at Dahlia, though, it’s different. I know she KNOWS how much she is loved, without a doubt. She is so grateful for my love, it literally breaks my heart. She cries in the morning with excitement that I am getting out of bed for the day. When I am petting her she looks up at me with such love in her clouded eyes (thanks to her previous owner for the head trauma you gave her, that made her eyes cloudy – f**king asshole) and she smiles. And I tell her how much she is loved.
Thinking of my dear friends who have had to say goodbye to their beloved pets, just brings all these emotions to the forefront as I realize my girl is likely 11 years old.
I remember my past, when I would wonder how I would live without Dupont, but I have managed to live without him. Thanks to the bundle of crazy I adopted a few months prior to Dupont passing away (you all know the bundle of crazy as Flipflop!).
I now am having those same thoughts, of how life will go on without a Dahlia or Flipflop in it…..but sadly I know it will, one day. Hopefully not for many many days! For now I just want to reassure Dahlia she is loved, as much as she loves me (maybe even a little bit more) and continue to enjoy the insanity Flipflop brings to my life. The past couple of weeks have been a reminder to me, how our babies are with us temporarily and to enjoy every moment.
Meghan, if you read this post, my heart is breaking for you. Chase was an amazing dog and friend. I’m so glad I got to meet him and bond with you over being a dog mom. And Marianne, I know Zeus was a senior feline rescue, and I know he was grateful for the love and second chance he was given by you and your family. I am also confident he found it in his heart to forgive you all for adopting Vanya.
And of course Joanne, although I met you after Merle passed away, I am so grateful Rome led you to Solo. It breaks my heart to hear amazing pet owners say they will never have another dog/cat because it hurts so much when they leave us. And it really does! But there are so many animals in need of great homes and they only ever break our hearts once. And the love, joy and happiness they bring us is worth it all.
And to all the amazing pet parents I know who have loved and lost but found the strength to love again, I thank you!!
No pet replaces another, none of my cats or dogs have replaced one another, much like humans, they all have different personalities and each bring something new to my life. And for each one of them and each one of my fosters (who I love so much) I am grateful.